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I was in my live free chat area the other day, and I had an interesting conversation with a guy that I wanted to talk about. You see, he was saying how famous I was, and I was like, well….I don’t actually FEEL that famous. I mean, I lead a pretty ordinary day to day life outside of making amateur porn. He wanted to know if I’ve ever been approached in a “Creepy” way, or if I have ever been stalked or followed.

I thought about it for a little bit and told him that “No” I haven’t really been approached in a creepy way at all. In fact, I hardly ever get approached in general. I can’t count about ten to fifteen times I’ve been approached since 2001. I can remember pretty much all of them in detail. There was only one or two times that I really got uncomfortable due to being with my kids.

In that situation we were out to dinner in Seattle. I was with two girlfriends and my kids – who were teenagers at the time. A very cute younger guy – looked like he was a frat boy or something, came over to the table and was like,….”I don’t mean to interrupt your dinner, but I know you….” The only thing I could think to say was. “Um,…no you don’t”. Looking back I could’ve stepped aside and talked to him in private, but I was in the middle of eating my dinner and chatting with girlfriends. He kept persisiting that he KNEW me, and truth be told he did- he just couldn’t place it somehow. After we left, my girlfriends were like, “Omg, that guy was so cute, I don’t get approached like that ever.” I laughed it off and said, “Whatever….that was just weird.” My friends are aware of the business that I do, so they knew what was happening. One of them had told me previously that she didn’t believe that I ever got approached about online porn. Well, that pretty much solved that riddle for her.

The next even I remember being a little bit odd was when I was at toys r us looking for a gift for one of my girlfriends son’s birthday. I noticed out of the corner of my eye that there was a guy peeking down the isle at me, the first time I just let it go…thinking it was nothing. Then I kept seeing him over and over in the store. Again, i was with my kids so, it wasn’t like I could stop and chat. So, as I was leaving the store I watched my back….walked to my car and started to drive away. I didn’t think much of anything, until I saw a red bmw closely following me & I could faintly make out the driver as the guy from the store.

I was driving a lexus is350 at the time, so I took off on the freeway and lost him in traffic. My kids completely oblivious to it all. Then I got home and when I checked my email there was one from a guy who said he saw me at Toys r Us and then gave my license plate number to me. lol. Well, that just confirmed my idea that I was being followed. I honestly don’t think the guy meant any harm, he told me I looked more beautiful in person. (Even though I was just in regular clothes and my hair in a pony tail with no make-up on) I found it flattering really.

When I am approached and I am by myself, I handle it perfectly. In fact, even when I am not by myself, I consider myself savvy about it. I just say, “Thanks…” and smile big at them, sometimes giving them a wink and that’s that. If I am by myself, well….there are no rules, I sometimes get their phone numbers and we chat or text, I’ve even met up with a guy a few times that recognized me in person at the gym. That turned out to be super HOT. Now, I am a dirty talker and I love to get nasty in bed, so sometimes I have to admit in the past I felt the pressure to sort of go overboard sexually to keep up with the personality you see on my website. Even though, that is really how I am in bed….I still felt a pressure a few times. I am over that now. I just do my thing.

The one time I was concerned about being recognized, was on my birthday out at a club with my new husband. We were approached by many swinging couples, which was totally HOT! But then there was this one guy- he looked a bit older, not sure his age. Anyhow, he was what I call “Hover crafting” around our table for hours. Finally I think he got enough drinks in him and decided to make his approach, and approach he did! He came baffling over and started almost yelling- Desirae…Desirae! My husband wasn’t too happy about it at that moment due to the drunkness and just the way he was handling himself. So, my husband stood up….then the bouncer and manager (who we know personally) came over and intervened. The escorted the guy away from us and all was good. It turned out to be one of the best birthday nights out ever. I still wasn’t offended, absolutely flattered, just didn’t really know how to handle him in his state of mind.

Yes, I am a little different in person that I am on camera. I think most “porn” or “amateur porn” girls are. I mean Kacey Kox as you probably knew her was competely different in person than on camera. She was a great girl, I know she’s doing very well now. Atleast I hope she still is. She wanted to come back and do a non nude website due to her having a child now. I used to go over to her house to take pictures of her before that, and we would laugh hysterically because I called her pussy a cooter or something. I was like, “Ok, time for the cooter shot….” She rolled out laughing. She was a very passionate girl and very strong in my opinion. I liked her a lot. She told me she got recognized quite a bit back in the day right after she broke up with Mr. Marcus.

I always had a good rapore with the girls I worked with on a personal level. The only time things got nasty between us was when – I’ll just say it. Amber had a crappy boyfriend named Randy at the time. He was calling the shots then, I am hoping she’s in a better place now. Anyways, my stupid Ex husband didn’t offer him the deal he wanted for a site, so they took the money and decided to try to make us not use any of the content we paid good money for.

I honestly think Amber is a good person at heart, it was just a fucked up situation. She knew it was my right to use her images etc. and even said so. Regardless, I still used the images & we had some stupid twitter battle a while back, but that’s history. It was Randy the skinny jerk off boyfriend that bragged about shitting on some guys hood because he wronged him somehow. I think he was just a wanna be pimp or worse. Me and Amber had went to the mall and had a great time together, so I am hoping she just remembers that and not all the silly Randy and Eric bs. Both of which are out of both of our lives forever hopefully.

I remember this one sweet model named Alissa showed up & we were in the bathroom getting all dolled up. She said, “You know I have a pistol in my bag….” Somehow it was funny to me, but I thought it was very smart of her to carry it just in case. In my situation I knew she was in a very good place and that she would be treated with total respect etc. We became quick friends and laughed about it later.

There was one time that my ex husband Eric decided to hire a russian model, she was very beautiful and tall…quite shy. I was more into chemistry between the girls, yes…..they have to sign a release etc. but I still wanted chemistry and good vibes. When I kissed her lips she let out a sweet sigh….and her eyes rolled back in pleasure. I found this very sexy. We used a strap on and had a good time. Eric wasn’t even involved. At the end, she had sex with her Manager guy- idk it was weird. I could tell she just wanted it over with, and when it was she asked me to smell her hair. Asked me if it smelled like cum, that she didn’t want her boyfriend to find out. I was shocked that she was out doing porn and he had no idea. I told her her hair smelled great, and she was on her way. She was only 19 years old, I kinda hated that manager guy after that. he was just creepy to me.

I got off track there. There are so many girls and guys I would love to talk about, but this isn’t a novel…it’s a blog post. I will write some more experiences later for you to hear….I just don’t have the time at moment to go through all of them.

So to wrap it up here. No, I don’t feel “Famous” I feel like a normal wife, mom, person etc. I have been banned from my father’s life due to porn I am assuming, we were never that close anyways. He has a temper and issues. Just glad I got good genes from him basically. My mom has always been supportive. One time I told her I had to go mail off a package – she was all curiuos about it, so I said, “yes, mom…I sell my panties.” She laughed and was like, “Do you really?” …I was like yes I do and it’s awesome.

Wow, I really went off in this post. I know I have haters out there, but I think that if you don’t have hater’s then you must be doing something wrong. 🙂 I am pretty sure that if you met me in person you would instantly feel comfortable and know I am a cool chic right from the jump.

I don’t do mainstream porn not because I have a problem with it. I don’t do it, because it’s out of my comfort zone & I want control over my videos. Also, I prefer an amateur setting, more real…more chemistry. I mean don’t get me wrong, I watch the crap out of those babes & they amaze me with the way they fuck & I’m sure sometimes they get off genuinely all the time. I’m sure those hot bodies have chemistry flying all over the place….some girls can flip a switch and be comfortable with any situation. I guess, to be honest I am a ltitle shy about that aspect. It’s hard to draw the line between reality and fantasy sometimes. I would probably ending up laughing or saying the wrong line or some silly shit. I think mainstream porn girls that are doing well are brave and sexy & hopefully are proud of themselves – vs. hating their decisions later. Man, just starting to talk about that is like opening a can of worms- or better yet, a can of whoop ass.

I’m just doing my own thing. I just didn’t want to sign a release and have my content used in a way I had no control over. It’s pretty understandable. I have had my porn crushes both male and female. I worked with Sara Stone once, and she was without a doubt the sweetest girl ever. We just did a girl girl scene & playing with those giant boobs of hers was like heaven. That was out in LA, I haven’t been out there to shoot any scenes since.

I get a ton of requests to do BBC. I get a lot of requests to work with certain girls and guys as well. So many requests, so little time. Wish I could do all of it, but reality is- a lot of guys I am with don’t want their faces shown at all, same with girls I play with. They want to keep that part of their life totally private due to family reasons and I respect that. So there is even more sex going on in my life behind the scenes.

I want to give a shout out to Anna Miller – she is a totally hot swinger babe. I have never met her, but admire her style and hope that her and Bruce are doing well. I know Wifey doesn’t do any swinging to my knowledge, but she’s seems incredibly smart and funny- I do feature her inside of my website as well. I was pissed off at Naughty Allie for a long time because I felt like I was being copied and my ideas being trampled on, but they are great at what they do…..and immitation is the highest form of flattery. so I am over it. I have changed my site a ton since those days, so it doesn’t look similar at all anymore. She did dub herself the dirty talking girl next door. That was after I dubbed myself that, so I changed it to your dirty talking wife next door, or your dirty talking milf. After I came out with Naughty at Home, there was a huge surge of Naughty this Naughty that…Naughty everything. Even Naughty America came out after I did. lol. I see a lot of Naughty’s on twitter too, then it seemed like girls were using “at home” at the end of all of their sites. Vicky Vette is a total babe & she used the athome deal as well. Not even sure if any of the girls I mentioned will read this, probably not lol.

Again, it’s just flattery….and I wish them all the best. Hope I have inspired some women out there to do their own sites & that it has improved their lives. I don’t take any credit for a name, but when I see “at home” or “Naughty blah blah blah” I laugh. Barbi Sinclair even said I was her inspiration on her website once. I was like , “Wow” that’s pretty fucking cool. She does a lot of BBC and totally naughty shit.

I hope I am not coming across as bitchy here, not bitching- just woke up and felt like writing down some thoughts. It started out by me talking about getting recognized from my websites. If you see me in person- I will say Hi and am a genuinely nice person. Just notice who I am with or if I am on a date or something, wink at me instead something subtle like that would be cool 😉

I am taking a break from dating sites for a little bit. I have a pretty large group of regular lovers that I have fun with on the side, but will be on the hunt soon I am sure. My hubby Justn is a total hottie, so if you are a swinger couple- hit me up on twitter or better yet, email us. All the girls like him, and it is refreshing to not be with a creep anymore that was selfish and greedy, plus he’s got a GREAT cock! hehe.

Hope you have a great day!

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